When I Have Nothing Left to Say

Some days, I don’t have words. Not because I’m at peace, not because everything is okay—but because the depression has taken them. It feels like my mind is empty and heavy at the same time. Like there’s so much inside me, but none of it can be formed into sentences that make sense. Just a dull pressure. A fog. Silence.

People talk about depression like it’s sadness, but this feels different. Sadness at least has a voice. This is blank. This is staring at a screen, knowing I should have something to say, knowing I used to have plenty to say, and feeling nothing come out. No thoughts. No insight. No hope. Just exhaustion.

I want to write, but there’s nothing there. I want to explain how bad it feels, but even that feels like too much work. The words don’t come, and when they do, they feel hollow—like they don’t belong to me anymore. It’s frustrating to feel so empty while still hurting so deeply.

Depression steals language. It turns everything into “I don’t know” and “it doesn’t matter.” It convinces you that your thoughts aren’t worth sharing, that your voice has dried up, that silence is proof you’ve lost something important inside yourself. And maybe you have—for now.

There’s also a strange loneliness in not having words. People ask how you’re doing, and you shrug. Not because you’re hiding anything, but because there’s nothing you can articulate. You’re tired of trying to translate a feeling that barely exists yet weighs a ton.

This kind of depression doesn’t cry loudly. It doesn’t beg for attention. It just sits there, heavy and quiet, draining the color out of everything—including language. And the worst part is wondering if this is permanent. If the part of you that used to think, feel, and express is gone for good.

I don’t have a hopeful ending today. I don’t have encouragement or perspective or wisdom. I just have this truth: right now, I am depressed, and I don’t have the words. And maybe writing that alone is all I can manage.

If this post feels empty, that’s because I am too.